Episode of Pregnant In Heels – This is Real
So incredible to think that the wee embryo I saw on the screen was Wells. So utterly amazing that on that screen was this very young baby boy, this miracle who so wanted to be here.
When I think of the moment I found out I was pregnant, all the doubt, all the walls I had built up around me, all the talks I had given myself about how I just may not have another baby, all faded away in an instant and I was completely pregnant, completely in mommy mode thinking about the life I wanted to be able to provide my family.
The truth is, though, that the road of pregnancy can be long. Despite the utter joy I felt in learning this news I was also paralyzed with a whole new set of fears – a whole new set of walls. What if I lost the baby? what if there were complications? What if he wasn’t healthy?
I wanted to be able to enjoy the moment, but I was so terrified that something horrible would happen and I wasn’t quite sure if we could weather another heartbreak. But not knowing whether I’d be able to handle losing the baby meant I wasn’t sure I could even handle the wonderful news that there was a baby. It was such a collision of emotions that I think I had to shut off part of my heart.
I don’t think this fear really subsided, nor did I really let my heart open completely again, until I held Wells in my arms the night I gave birth. Staring at him, constantly checking he was breathing throughout the night until the sun rose the next morning, I finally realized I really had another son, I really was a mom to two wonderful healthy boys.
It took me that long to realize the whole thing was real. I’d been protecting myself for so long I hadn’t fully acknowledged the fact that I was actually pregnant. And while I cried with joy the second JR was born, it took me until morning to shed those same tears of joy with Wells because I just hadn’t allowed myself to accept that he was real.
As the sun rose and Wells snuggled into my arms I knew it was real. More real than anything. I don’t know what the future holds for growing our family, whether that is even possible, but I do know I am so blessed and that being the mum to JR and Wells is the privilege of my life.
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Rosie – I’m so happy to hear that you had a healthy baby boy. I just watched this episode over the weekend and I started crying during your ultrasound when you found out you were pregnant. I too have struggled with infertility. I had a successful IVF in 2005 and out of the blue without even trying I became pregnant in December. It is a true miracle that I am pregnant and I am now 26 weeks. I also live in fear thinking something may go wrong. I don’t think I will feel better until I can hold my healthy baby boy. Thanks for sharing your struggles with us on your show. I love watching it and look forward to each episode. I’m a true fan of Rosie Pope!!
What a blessing! I am so happy for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story with us and for inspiring us with your love of family and motherhood.
I’m so happy for you Rosie! I had two problem pregnancies and now have a beautiful boy & girl. I love the show and the education you bring; and also, the knowledge you have when to bring in other experts. Enjoy the boys!
6 weeks ago I lost a baby boy@ 16 weeks. Your show is truly helping in my recovery. Thank you Rosie. Congrats on that baby boy, you’re an inspiration.
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This was my favorite episode by far! I love your show completely. I think I connected with you when you shared you were having trouble conceiving your 2nd baby. I too sought help to conceive our 1st baby, it was an emotional journey but well worth it. I was soooooo happy that you got pregnant on this episode. I learn so much as a new mom from you inspiring words and education. Many blessings to you and your family!
Rosie, Watching tonight’s episode was like watching my world during this past month replayed. We were told by every MD we saw, including a top fertility specialist, that our chances to conceive, even with IVF, were less than 10%. I had corrective surgery where they removed a fallopian tube. We tried IUI. We tried IVF. We were planning for another round of IVF when something just didn’t seem normal. I went to my PCP and she sent me for blood work. Results were positive so she reordered them. Again, we had positive results. My GYN said it was impossible. She called everyday for a week questioning the results then decided to send me for an ultrasound. No ectopic pregnancy. I was truly pregnant and the baby was in my uterus. It has been like living in a dream. I am currently 13 weeks pregnant. Yes, we have had our scares with a threatened miscarriage and pooling of blood but, overall, everything now looks healthy and I feel like the luckiest woman in the world. It was wonderful seeing your story and knowing that others can experience the same miracle that we are now. I (and you) am a constant reminder to my friends and family that dreams really do come to fruition. Thank you for sharing your story we your viewers!
I love your show , and i loved this episode , it made me tear up for you . I’m so happy for you and your family and i thank you for sharing something so personal to you .
CONGRATS TO ROSIE AND HER FAMILY. I LOVE YOUR SHOW AND THUMBS UP TO GIRL POWER
It was very exciting! I hope they approve next season.
Rosie, I am a card-carrying member of the Infertility Club and I just wanted to congratulate you on your pregnancy. I guess the show is taped many months ahead of time, since it seems you have had a baby boy. Congrats!! Infertility is such a test of endurance and really, I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t up to the challenge, no matter how long. I have learned so much about myself and how sometimes, going after what you want in life creates a whole new definition to the word perseverance. I wanted to thank you for including the storyline of your infertility struggle into Pregnant in Heels. There aren’t enough people in the public eye who are willing to bring light to this issue. Congratulations again! Aimee
Rosie, I too have had issues with infertility, I was able to have two beautiful babies and then had problems with trying for a third and had to have special surgery and take fertility medication. I had a beautiful baby boy and then got pregnant with twins and unfortunately lost them at 20 weeks, it was devastating to me. I then ended up suffering two additional miscarriages. I am very happy that you had another beautiful baby boy and congratulations to you, your husband and JR. Infertility effects women of all races and economic classes, unfortunately women who are not financially able to fight the infertility usually give up. It would be nice if there were orginizations that were willing to help the women who could not afford infertility treatments acquire their dream.
Hi Rosie!! So happy to hear your wonderful baby news. You seem like such a wonderful mom and I have already learned some great things from your show. I was just at your shop and bought 3 beautiful dresses that I can’t wait to wear! My husband asked LT to sign our bag, which was so much fun. Thank you so much for what you do and congrats again!
God works in mysterious ways!
Hi Rosie! Congratulations on baby Wells! I absolutely love you and your show. Tonight will be a bitter-sweet show,because I absolutely can’t wait to see it and I will miss you making laugh and cry on Tuesday nights. Anyways I hope you will be back for many, many more seasons!?! There are tons of us who love the way you talk, your honesty, your sense of humor and pretty much everything about you : -) So please don’t let those two nasty people bother you! Thanks a sincere Rosie fan
Rosie, Watching your show has been an inspiriation to me. My husband and I have been struggling with infertility for quite awhile now and were recently told that our only option was IVF and I was devastated. At first I was only watching your show because it happened to be on, since seeing all the pregnant women was difficult for me. But then, your story of your own stuggles came on and I have to admit seeing someone so put together dealing with the same things I was helped me. And then when it was revealed you had concieved I cried! I was so happy for you and it gave me hope that just because the doctors said it can’t happen doesn’t mean it won’t. For that I thank you and I hope Bravo brings you back soon with many more episodes than just eight! Thank you Rosie. You have a new fan in Las Vegas.
Rosie- In truth, I haven’t seen this episode, and don’t know if I can because of my own situation. I have struggled not with getting pregnant, but with having lost my daughter to stillbirth at 34 weeks, and a year and a half ago I lost another baby to miscarriage about six months after the first loss. I am expecting again, and am struggling with many of the emotions you describe in this post. I hope my story ends as happily as your’s did. I hope I can look back and be able to feel the joy you do. Having lost one pregnancy you understand the flood of emotions, and the detachment you develop simply to survive 9 months. I am told by the High Risk doctors that they will let me deliver early due to the anxietyI have, but I still have to get through June 23rd, which is my 34 week mark and 1 year anniversary of the miscarriage. Best wishes to you and your family, and thank you for putting your loss out there. It helps the rest of us who suffer in silence have a role model, and puts a face to a taboo subject.
Eric Flisser is the best IVF MD in the City!! I have my twins b/c of Dr. Flisser when nobody else, including one of his partners could get me pregnant, he was able to! He is kind, compassionate and the best at what he does!!! You’re lucky to have him as your doctor!!
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